Voicing it all

I just want y'all to know 
I do think to the future maybe have a child
I don't know 
But my thoughts they making me go crazy 
That $h!+ amaze me 
And I read somewhere that suicide is lazy
Because Dad remember you called me a quitter 
I got tired of doing all those sports
Well maybe...
Let me stop with the excuses 
I'm Crazy!
The thoughts in my head just keep going and going 
And I just keep thinking maybe just maybe 
They'll stop and won't phase me 
But that's a lot 
and God-damn it like y'all said I'm Lazy!